I believe in everything until it’s disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it’s in your mind. Who’s to say that dreams and nightmares aren’t as real as the here and now?” John Lennon
My nightmares have returned. It’s getting to the point where I just don’t want to go to sleep and when I wake up, I am mentally exhausted. These dreams are about snakes. I am not a fan of snakes, but I don’t have any phobias about them. The first dream I had I was in the shower. The water was warm and refreshing. I looked up and thought there was a cord coming out of the ceiling. I reached for it and realized it was a snake. I tried to get out of the shower, but couldn’t when I looked again its mouth was wide and tongue was out, ready to attach. I woke up sweating.
In the next few nightmares the snakes were there and I was scared, but they were not attacking me. Last night I was with my brother and I was explaining the nightmares to him. We were outside and suddenly the snakes were everywhere. when we’d get close to them they would attack. The dream took place at the house we grew up in, but we were adults. It was a dream inside of a dream.
I woke up this morning and realized that I need to tell the story of my mother’s death. I believe that my cousin’s death has brought it all back to the surface. I think the only way to get it out of my head is by writing it down. I think it may take me a while to write, but I think it will give me the release I need to free my mind from the venom.